Big Feelings

Once upon a time, many years ago, I stood for election to the Scottish Parliament. But it’s just as well I wasn’t elected. I cry too much, about too many things, to be an effective politician.

We still live in a world where no matter how important or valid a point you’re making, if you cry when you’re making it, people find that point easier to dismiss. They write you off as emotional, rather than rational. They say that you’re letting your feelings get in the way of the facts.

I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve cried over the last month.

I’ve cried on the phone to a staffer in Foreign Minister Penny Wong’s office, as I pleaded with that staffer to pass on the message that there is widespread support in the community for the Minister to demand a ceasefire in Gaza.

I’ve cried while walking the dog with my son, as I tried to explain to him why Palestine is something I have big feelings about.

I have cried sitting at my desk, watching footage of bodies pulled from under rubble, of bloodied limbs strewn across streets, of tiny premature babies carried in the arms of their doctors when there is no fuel left to power their incubators. I have cried learning about the existence of non-incendiary bombs that don’t explode on impact but instead discharge six metal blades that are capable of slicing through steel and concrete and destroying everything in their path. I have cried watching the forced displacement of many thousands of people – many of whom did exactly what they were instructed to do but ended up being shot anyway. And I have cried at the endless, awful stories of the children we have lost. Yahya, the boy who wanted to become an astronaut. Eileen, the girl who dreamed of owning a Lego toy. Ward, whose name stems from the Arabic word for flower.

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DorkySon: For the Oceans

Sea Shepherd Tasmania debris cleanup

Since we first arrived in Tasmania, DorkySon has held a quiet fascination with Sea Shepherd.

When the Bob Barker was in port a couple of years ago he kept a wary distance. He loved the idea of protecting whales, but he wasn’t quite sure about those big, sharp teeth painted on the bow.

He loved to look out for Sea Shepherd supporters when we were out and about. At markets and festivals, the familiar logo was emblazoned across t-shirts, hoodies, and beanies, and he could always spot them a mile off.

The longer we have lived here, the more DorkySon has grown to love the ocean and with that has come a new appreciation for the work that Sea Shepherd does. Continue reading

Keep It In The Ground

Guardian campaign logo Keep It In the Ground

I’ve been saying to myself for a while that I need to get back into some kind of campaigning again, but it has been hard to know what. As a non-voter in Australia I feel a bit odd about getting involved with a political party across here, and obviously I can grumble about UK politics as much as I like but I’m not really in a position to do much about it. There doesn’t seem to be as much of a lively NGO sector here as there was in Scotland, and family life means that I feel less inclined to spend my weekends waving placards and shimmying up lampposts. Although somewhat ironically having a family means that I’m now keener than ever to see a world which is safe and happy for DorkySon to grow up in. Continue reading

The One with the Referendum

Scottish Independence Referendum Green Yes

Och. I was doing so well too.

You have no idea how hard I’ve tried to be good about this. How often I’ve sat on my hands, and not commented, or liked or retweeted or shared or argued or said a single frickin’ word, because it’s not my business anymore. I HAVE BEEN SO GOOD! Ask DorkyDad how restrained I’ve been. Ask him how often in the last few months he’s heard me come out with some hideously bland and diplomatic answer when people have asked me about the Scottish Independence Referendum. He’ll pull this tortured face at you, like he’s stuck at a dinner party between Britney Spears and Kim Jong-un, and he just needs the whole thing to be over already.

But I’m so inspired and enthused by reading other people’s stories – so excited by the number of folk, women especially, who are finding their political voice for the first time – that I feel compelled to add mine to the chorus.

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What My Sight Means to Me

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What are the most beautiful things you’ve ever seen?

The beaches of Harris. The churches of Prague. That view you get of the Tyne as you cross the rail bridge heading north into Newcastle. An Arctic sunrise. A Greek sea. Every painting by Alison Watt. The way petrol in a puddle makes rainbows, and how it sidewinds slowly across a yard. Johnny Depp’s cheekbones. Fireflies. The Edinburgh Meadows in late afternoon, hazy with smoke from all those barbecues. My husband’s hands. My son’s smile. An angel’s wing icicle hanging from a wire. Flowers on the machair. White umbrellas in a crowd. Beckham’s goal from the halfway line in 96.

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